Action Tracey New Year!

Every year at about this time I start getting excited a new year is just hours away and in some places the world is already new. It's a turning and a chance to be new, to be who you might have been last year. On my birthday, which occurs only days before the new year I set a personal new birthday year resolution, this year it is to write in my journal every day, unfortunately I have got out of the habit, which is strange for me considering that I've written in a journal consistently since the 3rd grade. So there is my birthday resolution. Now for the New Years resolution of 2010, I have two and they are good ones. One I'm not going to tell you about but it could be one of the best ideas I've ever had, the other one is to practice yoga every day. I don't remember what my resolution was last year, I know I had one but at the moment it escapes me. This is going to be the year though. I really will be more of the person I have expected myself to be. Now everyone out there with a resolution, it is sure to fail without a plan. So here is my plan . . . I'm going to wake up an hour before I have to, every day and practice yoga. I've got a calender to check my progress and I'll post occasionally on a topic. My reason for this is I am very happy when I do yoga and I act better all around, plus sometimes I can be so lazy that I don't do things that I really enjoy. No more, this year I'm going to be an action Tracey. Merry Happy New Year to all!

The Itching Belonging Niche

Is it really possible that almost 4 years after graduating high school I still feel like I have no idea what to do with myself?
Here is a list of things I think would be worth while
1. Writing
2. Teaching
3. Working in the special collections of a major academic library
4. Photography
5. Editing books (not just copy editing but picking the books that are to be published)
6. Editing or writing for YOGA JOURNAL magazine
7. teaching yoga

It always seems like the success stories come from people who have found their niche in the world, or a place where they belong. Everyone one wants that. I want to find something I that makes me feel good, something that makes me feel like I belong here. But none of us really belong here. So to all those people who feel like they don't belong and can't seem to find their niche, you may be better off than those success stories, and if not then at least you aren't alone.

Not Sleeping

Of all the monotonous routines of our lives, I think going to sleep and waking up are my most favorite. I love sleep, I can't get enough of it. It is wonderful isn't it? I love snuggling in the blankets, forgetting my cares and worries and the dreams, wow. Last night I went to London and got lost on Durry Lane. I love waking up half an hour before I have to wake up just to contemplate how wonderful it is to sleep. The next best part is when this really swell guy calls every morning and says sweet things to me or curses the horrible cell phone coverage. So the time honored and all together necessary routine of sleeping and waking for me doesn't seem so monotonous. I actually enjoy it, except I haven't slept tonight. I know. Take a look at when the blog is getting posted, 6:30 am is for sleeping! Why can't I sleep? I'm going to miss the whole experience of sleeping and dreaming and waking. Not today, not for me, I miss out. I have a final in an hour and a half, at least I'll be awake and alert. Is there a medical condition for people who don't sleep yet feel no signs of tiredness? I mean I have to get tired sometime and when I do, I'll be waiting!